Thursday, April 18, 2013

If you're not the one then why does my soul feel glad today?
If you're not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call
If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all

I never know what the future brings
But I know you are here with me now
We'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with

I don't want to run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

If I don't need you then why am I crying on my bed?
If I don't need you then why does your name resound in my head?
If you're not for me then why does this distance maim my life?
If you're not for me then why do I dream of you as my wife?

I don't know why you're so far away
But I know that this much is true
We'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I'm prayin' you're the one I build my home with
I hope I love you all my life

I don't want to run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

'cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away
And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today
'cause I love you, whether it's wrong or right
And though I can't be with you tonight
And know my heart is by your side

I don't want to run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms

Thursday, April 11, 2013

Aku berhasil membentuk habits baru, , paling gak dalam 2 malam ini. Tidur cepat jam 9 agar bisa terbangun untuk sholat malam.

Walaupun gak bisa teng jam 9 tertidur tapi bila lah tidur cepat, asyiknya aku bisa terbangun otomatis jam 3 kurang, dan teruji aku gak merasa ngantuk karena kurang tidur, alhamdulillah.

Itu berita baiknya.

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Siang tadi aku ke pejaten village untuk belanja keperluan kantor, pas jam maksi ditemani rini.

"Dad, lu mo makan apa? "
"Gak usah deh, males makan sendiri. ."
"Ih gak papa lah.. beli roti kek, ntar tepar lagi kek maren"
"Ya udah, gue beli makan di kantor aja"

Ke toko roti dengan kesemerbakan aroma, perut ku berbunyi padahal sahur tadi cukup besar lah porsi makan aku.
Tapi roti itu begitu menggoda.

"Wuih dad ada roti keluaran baru nih", komen ku sambil liat rini milih roti.
"Kalo gue buka puasa dosa gak dad?"
"Gak lah kan bukan puasa romadon"
"Getuh yah dad", serta merta sepotong roti sample masuk ke dalam mulut.

Itu berita buruk nya, hiks. Sori mi, sahur kita berdua tadi berakhir begini.

Tuesday, April 9, 2013

Who do you think you see
When you look at me
Is it somebody strong
Somebody you could admire
And who do you think I am
When I take your hand
Are you counting on me
To fill your dreams and your desires
Well all I am
Is lonely (just) like you
All I wanna do
Is have one dream come true
All I am is handing you my heart
And hoping to be part of you
Who do you think you are
Standing in the dark
Are you waiting for me
Why can't I reach you from here
And how do I get to you
Won't you let me through
Don't you think maybe we
Have something special to be shared


Saturday, April 6, 2013

Hari ini aku puas bermain-main dengan nines, ameera, kenes dan kendra.

Jari nines yang tak ingin lepas memegangi jari ku, setiap beranjak setiap mengajak. Peluk dan cium mesranya saat kami hendak berpisah, dan tatap lekat matanya yang tak lepas dari ku saat kami harus benar-benar berpisah, semua membuat ku telah merindu walau sedetik baru terlepas dari bermain dengannya.

Jari mungil kenes menyentuh pipi ku saat aku baru datang, dan tanpa aku sangka tangan satunya menyentuh pipi ku lagi dan dia mendekatkan wajahnya, mencium ku lembut. Subhanallah, baru pertama aku melihat reaksi bayi seperti ini, keharuan ku runtuh.

Ameera walaupun hanya melekat dpelukan ibunya, aku cukup tersanjung dengan fasihnya dia menyebut ku, tante inen.

I do love you, kids.
Tumbuh sehat, pintar dan solehah yah..


And I love you. .

"Nen, kamu ingin punya anak?"
"Uhmm biasa aja.."
"Nen, kamu bisa mandikan bayi? "
"Aku gak pernah, , biasanya aku terima ponakan ku dah ready to wear"
"Aku bisa mandikan bayi, kita selesaikan yang udah besar aja yah. ."
"Iyah"

Friday, April 5, 2013

"Nen, kamu bisa masak? "
"Bapak mauk apa? Nanti aku Google"
"Nen, kamu bisa perbaiki baju ku yang rusak?
"Iyah"
"Nen, tangan mu kuat untuk mencuci?"
"Ada mesin cuci lah"
"Nen, kamu bisa menyuapi ku makan bila aku sakit?"
"InsyaAllah"
"Nen, bisa jangan panggil aku bapak, mas aja"
"Tentu mas"
"Nen.."
"Pak.."

Monday, April 1, 2013

Pelangi di ujung bulan.

Kalau aja aku gak dengar teriakan seorang anak perempuan dari rumah sebelah,  "pelangiii ada pelangiii", mungkin aku masih berasik masuk dengan hp ku.

Cepat aku berlari keluar, menengadah ke langit,  mencari pelangi.  Yes, aku menemukan pelangi, kali ini aku beruntung.  Duduk asik diatas tembok, menatapi lengkungan berwarna indah, spektrum. Biasan sisa hujan yang tertimpa cahaya surya.

Subhanallah.

Sebelum siang tadi, sengatan dan udara terasa panas,  aku harus menyalakan semua kipas angin.  Minuman dingin juga tak lepas dari tenggorokan.

Jelang sore hujan turun, yang sempat membuat kak jana kesulitan pulang ke rumah,  dan akhirnya memutuskan untuk menerjang hujan.

Dan ternyata,  semua berujung pada keindahan. Pelangi senja di ujung bulan maret.

Alhamdulillah.